I want to feel small,
smaller than I have ever felt,
smaller that I can imagine feeling.
I want to experience felt knowledge
that in the multitudes of specks of light in the night sky,
each tiny speck,
not just represents another sun,
but in reality is another sun,
often larger than the one I know.
I want a felt sense of those suns and planets
so far away as to not be visible,
and a felt sense of how far away that really is,
and then I want to feel that that most remote solar system
is not the edge of existence,
but rather closer to the center of it.
I want to feel the presence of the other life forms
in the unimaginable vastness,
to see their faces,
to feel the life force flow through them
and to know deeper than words that this life force
is the same in me.
I want to know you better God
in your immensity and benevolence,
but my very limited mind just can’t grasp this,
not even the beginning of grasping,
so I ask that you teach my heart
to know what is beyond comprehension,
that I am so, so tiny,
yet so, so precious to you.