Bigger
When I see her reach for you it makes me jealous –
I hate to admit it, but it does.
Because her favorite toy is the one you gave her
(it’s clear you bent the gifting guidelines)
I feel annoyed – although I like to play with it too.
When it’s you she pretends to call on the phone,
your Facebook post that shows unbridled joy together,
and when she spends more time at your house on Christmas,
it stings.
It stings more than a little –
AND –
it brings an even bigger feeling…
gratitude that her grandpa loving is doubled,
joy for the bigger joy in her life,
and freedom to rejoice in what is.